Wednesday, December 2, 2009


As he stepped into that dark and grubby room, and shut the door behind him. It was all black and quite. He advanced towards the side table, where her mother kept her favorite lamp. He didnt lit it, he wanted to be in the dark, he was used to the darkness of this room, the room which was only illuminated by sunlight or moon. He moved the curtain aside. Now he could see the things clearly in the moon light.
He gazed here and there, his eyes were searching something, he looked around and caught a glimpse of it, under the shadow of the unlit lamp. Quietly he sat beside the bed, he didnt wanted to disturb the one sleeping on the bed. He picked up the frame which was facing downwards and caressed the photo with his cold hands, he realized how cold his hands were when a warm drop touched his dorsum. It was a tear, rolling one by one from his cheek, they drenched his hand and the photo.
" Mama, i didnt wanted to wake u up but,,,,,, i c c c came here" ; he took a sigh," th th to tell u that, your grand son left the house,hhhh he yelled at me and his mother, he pushed me to and threatend me, but still... i i want u to help me mama, i want u to help me bring him back, he is my only son, i i iii........... dieee wit without heeeeem....... i know he s gna listen th thoo you, he always do what u sayyyyyyy,, moma pleeeeeeeez help me"
He sobbed like a baby, his shirt was wringing wet, and the bedsheet on which he had kept his head.
Next moment he felt the soft and warm touch of her fingers on his cheek, she caressed him gently. " Dont cry my baby, he ll come back one day"
He opened his soaked eyes, and his words were caught in his throat before he could speak. He got up on his feet, baffled with panic he picked up the blanket. It made him insan, it was awful. Stricken with dismay, his feet trembled and his forehead was dreanched by cold sweat.
He saw nothing but an abandoned bed. He couldnt speak, neither shout, and fell on the ground.
" Get up sweety, what happened? are u okay now?...... how are u feeling now, i told you not to get depressed but u never listen to me". It was his wife, sitting right next to him with a glass of water and two antidepressant tablets. He opened his eyes forcefully, he was drowzy and his head felt heavy. " I saw u in the morning, lying on the carpet in moma's room, i think u blacked out last night."
He held her tight, and stared acting like a crazy. "what happened honey?" the glass in her hands sliped with a jerk and smashed on the floor.
" I herd mama last night, she told me that our son will come back on day,,, iii iii no whhat she meant,,, ii no he will return only when we die, phhhhhhh its aa aaal my mistake, i did the same to mama, i never gave her any happiness, AND NEVER RETURNED TILL NOW
,,,,, TILL NOW THAT SHE IS DEAD........................."
It happened 40 years ago, it happened now,, and may happen again in coming years........................................

Sunday, September 6, 2009


Koi zabt de na jalal de,

Mujhe sirf itna kamal de,

Main har ik ki sada banun,

K zamana meri misaal de,

Teri rehmaton ka nazool ho,

Meri mehnaton ka sila milay,

Mujhe maal o zor ki hawas na ho,

Mujhe bas tu rizk e halal de,

Mere zehen me teri fikr ho,

Meri sans me tera zikr ho,

Tera khauf meri nijaat ho,

Sabhi khauf dil se nikal de,

Teri bargah me ay khuda,

Meri roz o shab he yahi dua,

Tu raheem he tu kareem he,

Tu sabhi balaaon ko taal de.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Uski yadon me doob jata hun,
khud ko tanha kabhi jo pata hun,
qatra qatra wajood se le kar,
khwahishon ko lahoo pilata hun,
log khushyan talash kartay hain,
me to gham bhi khareed leta hun,
aaj kal he mizaj-e-dil barham,
rona agar chahun to muskurata hun,
roz chahta hun bhool jaun usay,
roz ye baat bhool jata hun............

Wednesday, February 18, 2009


Quran says:

"aay banday agar kabhi raat ko teri aankh khulay or tu phir so jay to tu ne mujh se bewafai ki

aur agar teri ankh khulay aur tu ne wazu kia aur meri ibadat ki aur tu ne manga aur mene na dia to mene tujh se bewafai ki. aur me aisa nahi karta"

"surah mulk para # 29"
I AM A BOOK IN ELEGANT PRINT,
TO KNW MY NAME HERE ARE SOME HINTS

RICH IN COVER AND NICELY BOUND,
IN HEARTS OF MUSLIMS IM RARELY FOUND

HIGH ON SHELF I AM KEPT,
FORGOTTEN THERE IM LEFT

WITH RESPECT I GET LOTS OF KISS,
MY MAIN POINT IS WHAT THEY ALWAYS MISS

IN A MELODIOUS VOICE THEY RECITE ME,
NEGLECTING THE MESSAGE INSIDE ME

AT TIMES I AM USED FOR PHONY SWEAR,
MY TRUE USE IS VERY REAR

A MIRACLE I AM THAT CAN CHANGE THE WORLD,
ALL ONE HAS TO DO IS UNDERSTAND MY WORD

I HAVE WISDOM I HAVE TREASURE,
SO MUCH SO THAT IS NO MEASURE

IMM YOUR SAVOUR IM YOUR GUIDE,
BUT WHOS THERE TO FOLLOW THE BIDE

RIGHT FROM WRONG IS MY FAME,
HOLY QURAN IS MY NAME

Monday, February 2, 2009


Tom went to his mother who was washing dishes in the kitchen. "Momy momy" he continued, " I worked all day long, here is the list of chores i did for you, and their rates". Mom wiped her hands with the apron and took the paper tom was offering her. SHe read the long list which said:

Plouging plant pots= 10$

watering flowers=5$

cleaning windows=20$

polishing shoes=15$

cleaning my room=50$

feeding tommy=25$

doing homework=25$

150$ total

Mom smiled and without speaking started scribling on the paper and returned it back.

It said

When you were a kid i

Wiped your nose=no charge

cleaned your poo=no charge

washed your nappies and cloths= no charge

fed u = no charge

tought you talking and walking= no charge

woke up at nights=no charge

loved you= NO CHARGE.........................................................................



Tom read carefully and wrote something again under his ratings


totol charge/ paid full in advance.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

cookie theif

As i proceeded towards the waiting lounge, i saw a tukshop. My stomach gave a deep rumble. I had missed my lunch in order to catch the plane on time. But atleast 10 min were left for the last announcement. I headed towards the shop and grabed a cookie half role and walked towards the seats. As i was half running; my feet slipped on the shiny marbled floor. My hand bag, boarding pass, passport and cookies scattered on the floor. I didnt looked up due to embarasment, and started collecting my things.
"May i help you", a kind voice came from behind. I nodded without thinking. The man started to collect my papers and grabed my handbag and luggage. I followed him with out showing formality and sat beside him as he placed my things on the next seat.
I thanked the man and took my stuff. He placed his luggage their as well, took a deep breath and opened the cookie pack. I stared at him with sarcasm. I wasnt that much helpless that i couldnt have opened that. He looked at my open mouth and offered the cookie. I took one with surprize. He ate the 2nd one and placed the pack on the arm support. He opened his newspaper and started reading. I started eating with speed. 3rd 4th and 5th cookie but he moved his hand again. When he held the half empty pack he looked at me and gave a kind smile and took the next one. Now i was burning with rage, what an UNKIND COOKIE THEIF he was. He was eating my cookie and giving me the looks as if he brought them for me. So i decided to pick up the pack,and ate fastly, but the man was very shameless. He pointed toward the last cookie in my hand and said, "may I?" I gave a look of disgust and handed over the pack. " Oh i didnt knw it was tHe last one!". he broke the cookie into half and offered the piece to me. I stood up without taking it and walked out. He looked at me till i left the hall. I was red and mad.
As I sat in the plane after 10 min I took a deep frustrating breath. It would be better to check my bag once again i decided.
As i opened it , to my utter astonishment i saw the cookie pack i took from the shop.
Now i understood. How stupid i was and what a fool i made of my self. The cookies i was eating belonged to that man, and i got angry for nothing. It was infact me who was an unkind cookie theif. I wished I never meet him again because hiding my face was better than apologizing.

Mumkin jo agar hota,

Hum tum ko bhula detay

Yaadon ko kafan day kr,

Be wakt sula detay

Tanhai me ji laitay,

Na tum ko sada detay

Is dil se teray dil tak,

Diwaar utha detay

Mumkin jo agar hota,

Hum tum ko bhula detay

Saturday, January 24, 2009

yunhi umeed dilatay hain zamanay walay
lot k kab aatay hain janay walay
Kabhi dekha tu ne sehra me sookha darakht
aaisay hi jhulastay hain wafaon ko nibhane walay

Sunday, January 11, 2009


She stood in front of me, i could see her from not so close and not too far. There was a strange sparkle in her eyes, sparkle of happiness, she could not stop smiling stop blushing. From all that time since i knew her she was never the same. She was beautiful, she looked like A GIRL OF HEAVEN. Her yellow cloths, her raised arms, her hands ful of mehendi.

I stood there, i wasnt moving. i wasnt walking towards her, to avoid missing this moment, to avoid missing her glimpes. I stood like stone probably with open mouth.................. Then she took a step. She was coming towards me and then.............



all black..... as dark as death.........



I jumped up . I opened my eyes, breathing deeply, my heart ponding so loud that i could hear it, drenched with a bucket full sweat. i wiped my tears and got up.

Why does she comes in my dreams, why cant i 4get her???

I got ready and went to the office. life must go on, i had to earn for my parents. They were old and i was the only child. They were the only reason why i was alive.





Two years had passed, she was in my arms. I cant forget that time.

It seemed as if all the happiness in world is under my feet. i waited for the time to pass as soon as possible.Each day was passing like centuries.
Two days left for my wedding, I was getting married to the one i always had desired for
We were together from two years, we had just graduated from the same university. With time we never came to know when did we came close and fell deeply in love. I remember those times, those smiles, stupid jokes, some tears, some laughters, lovecards, paper chating in class, every thing.
I got insan.What on earth happened to me, i never forgave my self for that.Just 2 days left and she would b mine forever.
I decided to call her. I told her to come to the park next to her house. 'Are you nuts? Its my mehendi. How can i come'. I wish she would never had persuaded. I wish she would have said no.I wish i wish........... but she never refused anything i said. I wanted to see her. Last time before we become wedded couple. Last time before she became a bride with red dress she always wanted to be since she was a kid.
As i waited for her in the park , she reached in no time. I was watching her from other side of the road.
She stood in front of me, i could see her from not so close not too far.There was a strange sparkle in her eyes, sparkle of happiness, she could not stop smiling, stop blushing. Frm all that time since i knew her she was never the same. She looked beautiful she looked like A GIRL OF HEAVEN. Her yellow cloths her raised arms her hand full of mehendi.
I stood there, wasnt moving wasnt walking towards her, to avoid missing this moment, to avoid missing her glimpes.I stood like a stone probably with open mouth............ then she took a step........ she was coming towards me and then....................................

All black. as dark as DEATH.


I stood still. It took a little time for me to move , to absorb the situation, to believe that she was hit by a vehicle.
I ran toward her, helpless, bleeding, her mehendi covered in red blood. I picked her in my arms, she was getting cold, she couldnt open her eyes. She wanted to say something, may be that she didnt wanted to die. I wiped her face ' i wont let u go i wont' I was repeating
Then her hand fell, SHE WAS GONE...............

Every body has to go one day, but I couldnt even say the things I wanted to.
To tell her that how much I loved her, to tell her that how much im sorry to tel her that how much i cry to tell her that she looked beautiful that day to tell her that i really wanted to see her in red dress to tell her that she would always be in my heart to tell her that she was
THE GIRL OF HEAVEN

Friday, January 9, 2009



May ik banda hun aam sa


kisa natamam sa


na baat me mithas he


na ada kuch khas he




na surat me wo rang he


na mujh se kisi ko aas he


bas koi puche tum se


to keh dena kuch khas nahi


bas shakhs he ik aam sa


ik kisa natamam sa